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Apr. 16th, 2009 | 10:42 am

I'm going to see about seeing a therapist again.

I used to see a therapist and did nothing but lie to them the whole time.
I believed that traditional "therapy" (sitting with a counselor and talking about your problems) was indulgent and ineffective.
I started going to the Psychic Institute...it was amazing that they could help me with my problems and I didn't even have to talk. I still love that place.
And I started changing my diet and noticing my thoughts transform.

I thought, "THERAPY IS SHIT. Diet and sprituality are the way to go!"

But I sit here today with too many thoughts in my head

SO much confusion.
I don't feel grounded at all.
I feel anxiety.
Someone starts talking about death and I start crying.

I feel myself being suffocated by my insecurities again...

I don't want to let myself slip and watch myself fall into a deep depression.
So I think I'm going to start seeing a therapist.

I realized...
Therapy may not have been for me a couple years ago.
But I find it necessary right now.
Right now I need to TALK about all the shit that's in my head...

I am being destructive in every way possible and it's like it happened over night. I don't know why, I don't know how...I don't know how to prevent something like this if I don't even know how it happened!!

Back to the drawing board...

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Liar, Liar

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from: okayilovehim
date: Apr. 25th, 2009 06:39 am (UTC)

awe darling this is good! i was always anti therapy and one day i just knew i needed help, and its so strange how things workout... i set up a meeting and a week later my mom tried to off herself. ive been seing kelly for 8 months and the things shes done for me, or the things shes helped me to do for myself are amazing. its scary but when your ready and it sounds like you are it can be life changing. i mean common im proof :). i hope it al works out lovely girl. your so amazing and wonderful you dont need the crap in your life.

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Liar, Liar

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from: okayilovehim
date: Apr. 25th, 2009 06:42 am (UTC)

oooh and i'll be in town soon. maybe i'll be all the therapy you need :) i love ya slimey limey. im so durn proud of you. i feel like a momma hen

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Rustam Nalsurov :)

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from: nalsurok
date: Jul. 20th, 2015 08:54 am (UTC)

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