I thought I knew..
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Apr. 16th, 2009 | 10:42 am
I'm going to see about seeing a therapist again.
I used to see a therapist and did nothing but lie to them the whole time.
I believed that traditional "therapy" (sitting with a counselor and talking about your problems) was indulgent and ineffective.
I started going to the Psychic Institute...it was amazing that they could help me with my problems and I didn't even have to talk. I still love that place.
And I started changing my diet and noticing my thoughts transform.
I thought, "THERAPY IS SHIT. Diet and sprituality are the way to go!"
But I sit here today with too many thoughts in my head
SO much confusion.
I don't feel grounded at all.
I feel anxiety.
Someone starts talking about death and I start crying.
I feel myself being suffocated by my insecurities again...
I don't want to let myself slip and watch myself fall into a deep depression.
So I think I'm going to start seeing a therapist.
Therapy may not have been for me a couple years ago.
But I find it necessary right now.
Right now I need to TALK about all the shit that's in my head...
I am being destructive in every way possible and it's like it happened over night. I don't know why, I don't know how...I don't know how to prevent something like this if I don't even know how it happened!!
Back to the drawing board...